The conception is progressing.
The production is paused for now.
There are things I want to write out and clarify.
I am scheduled to be hospitalized next month.
I have been considering how that time might be used,
though I do not know how it will unfold.
Not because of the outcome of the surgery,
but because I have not imagined who I will be afterward.
I cannot call it a good opportunity.
If it could have been avoided, I would have avoided it.
What has happened has happened.
To say later that it was “part of the flow” is one thing.
To say so now does not sit well with me.
For now,
I simply want to create something
I can genuinely accept.