I am to be hospitalized starting tomorrow.
This time,
I intend to avoid being discharged again due to a fever.
And yet,
my condition has been good lately.
Good enough
that there seems to be no cause for concern.
Is hospitalization,
and even surgery,
truly necessary?
What if,
at the deepest level,
none of it is real?
Enough to raise such doubt.
I will observe
how this shift in perception
affects the course
of the hospitalization and the surgery.