At the hospital,
I am told the results.
Colon cancer.
Stage three.
Lymph node involvement.
The liver and lungs are clear.
“Unfortunate, but fortunate,”
the doctor says.
I’ll take the fortunate
without the unfortunate.
The thought passes through my head.
Now then.
What changes
because of this?
If anything,
one thing becomes clearer.
I want to release
what I have been building.
A small service.
Ideas written out.
Specifications arranged.
Tests repeated.
I will put it out.
At least that much
no longer wavers.
Strangely,
I feel a little excited.